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How I balance life as a homeschool mom who also works outside the home.

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Reflecting on Past Events and the Girl Who Left a Mark on People’s Hearts

Sometimes I have these moments where I just start to reflect on the past, moments in time that may have faded a little in my memory. I think about events that occurred in my lifetime that had a big impact on our nation, on our world, that made people stop the normalcy of their lives for a moment and realize the reality of what we are facing in this day and age.  They were the moments that made us hug our families a little tighter, reevaluate our priorities, and brought on a nation that showed a little more compassion. In those times, people felt closer, more united, and more caring towards others, willing to reach out a hand to those in need.

As I was reflecting on the past recently, one pivotal moment in U.S. history that had a powerful impact columbineon me and always stayed in my memories was the Columbine Massacre, which occurred seventeen years ago, on April 20, 1999. As some of you may recall, it was one of the first massacres of its kind in U.S. history. Thirteen people lost their lives that day, twelve students and one teacher, along with the two shooters, who ended up taking their own lives. Many were wounded. It shocked the nation and brought it to its knees. It seemed so unreal to me at the time that high school students could have schemed and planned this horrific event, especially with such gumption and enthusiasm as they had displayed. Although, through the horror of that event, stories started to unfold, about the victims, from families and friends, that caused people to look at this tragedy in a whole new light. It seemed to reveal that God was working His plans all along, answering prayers in a very different and specific way, working His will through this devastating event. One particular student who lost her life at Columbine that day really resonated with me. Her name was Rachel Joy Scott.

rachelscottRachel Scott was a normal seventeen year old junior, who loved people, but more so, loved God with all her heart, soul, and mind. She wasn’t afraid to let people know that about her and she would purposely go out of her way to befriend the outcasts, the students who just felt like they didn’t fit in. She kept a journal of her thoughts, and there is one particular quote she has been known for. She wrote this:

“I have this theory that if one person can go out of their way to show compassion, then it will start a chain reaction of the same. People will never know how far a little kindness can go.”

Rachel had more wisdom in the seventeen years that she was on this earth than some adults do in their entire lifetime. She was passionate about God and about being used as a light to help others. She was compassionate towards other people. She wanted to start a chain reaction of kindness. She was God’s girl, and God used her. She made a lasting impact in the lives of many, during her life, and more so, in her death. She died a martyr. She was killed for her faith. Yet she brought hundreds of people to Christ after her funeral aired on CNN. No one could have predicted that this tragedy was the way God had intended to accomplish it.

In the busyness of our everyday lives, we can get so wrapped up in our own schedules, routines and commitments, that we often forget to reach out a hand and show a little compassion to the people around us. It could be a simple greeting. It could be a question, just simply asking how someone’s doing, or it could be an act of kindness. It could just be a listening ear. Rachel started a movement, and I’m not sure how far it stretched or how long it lasted, but I’d like to believe it is still continuing to this day. Reflecting on the past brought me back to the moment of Columbine, and the girl who started the kindness and compassion movement. Rachel left a beautiful legacy. She had a purpose and fulfilled it. God wants to use us, too. He has a purpose for each one of us and wants to fulfill it through us. I want to have the same fire and passion for Christ as Rachel did. I want to be so bold as to not be afraid to share it with those who are in my life. I believe we can make an impact right where we live, and right now. And who knows? We may even start a “chain reaction”, as Rachel had put it. How wonderful it would be if we could all follow Rachel’s example and live as she lived, perhaps leaving a lasting legacy behind? Sometimes it’s good to reflect on the past, because we can always learn something from it. Let’s not wait. We were called for such a time as this. The time is now. God wants to use us today.


This was found drawn and written on the back of an old dresser of Rachel’s. She mentioned in one of her journal entries that she was obsessed with hands.



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From Nature to Life

imageIt’s late at night, my kids and husband are all asleep, but I’m still awake, in the quiet, reflecting on things….

It seems to have become quite a pattern for me lately, staying up late past everyone and still waking up early to start my day. Seems that my best thinking occurs at night, when God clears my mind to get to my heart and soul.

When I was driving to my patient’s house last week, I couldn’t help being in awe of how beautiful and scenic my drive was. We have had one beautiful and vibrantly colorful fall this year and although the pic at the top wasn’t the actual pic of my drive, it pretty much looked like this. It made me think about God and how He created things to be very eye-catching and beautiful. I then began to wonder why God made the trees so beautiful in color right before He made them lose all their leaves to be barren and almost lifeless looking in the next season.

Interestingly enough, though, the next season after that brings them back to life with new vibrance. They weren’t truly dead, God just made them new again.

God does the same with us. He is always shaping and refining us, making us new again and again, so we can show our new and more vibrant colors again to the world. We were never meant to stay the same, and God will continue to make us lose our old self so He can make us into the new creation we are supposed to be, until we are complete.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

“He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6

Every circumstance, every trial, every hurt is a way God is working in us to completion. Sometimes we are not looking beautiful in our circumstances, just like the trees in the winter season, but we need to hold onto His promises and soon we’ll enter a season of new growth and beauty. He began a good work in us and He’ll complete a masterpiece when He’s finished.

Love how God can take nature and turn it into a life lesson for our spiritual growth and understanding! He is pretty awesome!

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The Busy Life and What Really Matters

1403046348It’s been awhile since I’ve written a blog post. Four months ago, to be exact. I couldn’t put a finger on a topic. Nothing seemed to jump out at me. Then life got busy. Very busy. We found ourselves in the midst of a whirlwind of multiple things going on, and some that caused anxiety and stress for me personally. It caused my blog to be put on the back burner for awhile. In fact, it hadn’t been on my mind for a couple of months, but then, I realized there have been so many changes in our household recently that I need to reawaken my blog again. I have new things to talk about, different experiences, new hopes, and big dreams.

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Confessions of a Homeschool Mom: I Fail At Time Management!

I wake up every morning promptly at 6am. I do my devotional quietly in bed before anyone else is up, spending one on one time with the Lord before I start my day. I then get on the tread-climber and walk for 30 mins to get my exercise in before the kids are up. I shower and dress right after. I wake up my “eager to start the day” children at 7am and they immediately jump to their morning routine of making their beds and getting dressed. I help my six year and almost four year old daughters get dressed, whom were patiently waiting for me in their room and very agreeably state that they can’t wait for me to fix their hair and have breakfast. My 13, 11 and six year old children tell me that they are looking forward to another fun-filled educational day of learning and are geared to start their schooling for today. We all are dressed and head downstairs at the same time and my older children jump in to help me prepare breakfast so the day runs smoother. We then all sit down at the kitchen table to eat our delicious breakfast of eggs, toast, bacon or sausage while we have a wonderful, deep, heart felt conversation about the things on our mind. We clean up and get ready to start our school day, and we all finish smoothly by noon. We have lunch and then the children have the rest of the day to play until their chores in the later afternoon while I relax and read a book or do my crosstitch until it’s time to prepare dinner, which I have so carefully planned out. My husband comes home right as my delicious dinner is being pulled out of the oven and he is immediately surrounded by four loving, helpful, obedient children who anxiously give their dad a hug and ask him how his day was. He responds “Great!” as I lovingly smile at him and give him a kiss. I tell him “Welcome home” and we all sit down to a quiet meal while my husband reads the family devotional for today. After we finish dinner, my older children immediately jump to their chores while I get my youngest two to bed and my husband relaxes after a long day of work. My oldest two finish their chores perfectly and right on time, say goodnight to both my husband and I, and then get ready for bed. My husband and I get two full, uninterrupted hours of alone time at night before we head to bed. We then get a full night of sleep and feel energized to face the next day.

Sound too good to be true?

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Where Do You Get Validation From?

That is a question I myself often fail at answering correctly. A big area of struggle in my life, I tend to base my self worth on the validation of others, and nowadays, with all the social media around, we can so much more easily fall into that trap of looking for others approval more often than God’s. I know I do.

Throughout my life, I didn’t have many friends, only a handful I can count on my one hand. I wanted to be liked by all, and certainly didn’t want to do anything to create enemies. I’ve been a Christian all my life, being taught all the characteristics of God, yet I still seek validation from others instead of the One who knows me completely and loves me anyway, even with all my flaws. Shouldn’t He be enough? The definition of “validate” in the Meriam Webster dictionary is to recognize, establish, or illustrate the worthiness or legitimacy of. Isn’t that what God does for us? Continue reading